i didn’t intend on a break nor hiatus. hence i never make such announcement, because i know i could change my mind the moment i do it. the only excuse is now, i’m just… unmotivated. i don’t know if i should continue or stop blogging. there are times when i thought oh i’m going to blog about this or that, but when i’m in front of my computer, i just stare at my screen. then i’d rather spend my time doing aimless stuffs in wow.
i still play the game even though i don’t raid anymore. i think the game is boring now. the only reason i’m still playing is because the husband plays. it’s one of the things we do together.
there are some positive side effects of stop blogging for a while, especially beauty blogging. i buy less. i haven’t read beauty blogs for a while and there are less chance of temptations for me to lust after things. i keep on using what i have and only buy things i really need (ok, that also include some very rare lusting items i really ‘need’, but they were on irresistible offers and i have skipped many irresistible offers!)
as some of you know i haven’t been working for quite a while, after involuntarily quitting my job at the end of 2012. i tried to look for a while but became unmotivated after some unsuccessful applications. my continual insomniac problem was also one of the reasons. it was until last x’mas i decided i couldn’t lead ‘this kind’ of life anymore and started actively looking in the new year. there were some very promising interviews but failed in the end. there are always more ‘suitable’ candidates than me. i signed up with a freelance agency because getting projects on my own is so hard without connection. i haven’t been assigned to worked on many projects and the pay isn’t that great. not enough to pay the bills but it’s better than nothing. i’ll keep trying.
another reason that prompted me to actively looking for job besides the financial factor is because according to some online test i landed on randomly a while ago i have some form of depression. i was alarmed by the result and started to review some of my behaviors. no i haven’t seek professional help because 1) i don’t know how accurate and professional those forms are, 2) i don’t think i’m as serious as the result says, and 3) it’s going to cost money. i may be wrong but as long as i’m aware there’s a possibility i should be fine for the moment.
my 2013 wasn’t any better.
still not much done this year.
too many insomniac nights. i had med that helped me to sleep but that only helped 1st time round. 2nd time round it didn’t help much. i gave up.
i’ve been very very unmotivated. that really shows on my neglected blog. there were some server issues and i’m unmotivated to fix them too.
i hope things will be better in 2014.